Ok, today was ok I guess. No shopping which is of course great!:) Mom's working the afternoon shift. So yeah, no shopping. Anyways I have been fighting on and off with my youngest sister for about 3 days I think. And she's so annoying. I actually tried to apologise but her stupid ego and pride couldn't take it. argh. She's so annoying! And her temper's really bad seriously,worse than before! She actually ends up beating me and it really hurts!Argh.So irritating. I am actually quite scare of her.Embarassing right? I know.

Ok right now, we are talking about disgusting things. About how fathers can rape their own biological daughter.It's absolutely disgusting and inhumane. How can you even think of it? Argh. How did we even start talking about it.? Erm. we started talking about about marrying first cousins and the serious consequences in the form of your child.Bleagh.

Anyways, also started talking about love and all. I am pretty much against love. Well I don't like to fall in love basically. But I love other people's love stories to have a happy ending. And I was like reading all my cousin's love messages from her boyfriend.So sweet and she's so happy and all.

And speaking of love stories, I was personally devastated when I heard about Nisha's and Kaveen's story. I really wanted them to work. I just knew they were for each other somehow even though he's younger than her. But still she's obviously in love with him and I thought he was in love with her. I really did and then he had to ruin the whole thing. I felt really sad for Nisha,really. But it got me thinking, that love just leads to pain! I hope this will not be the result in my cousin's own love story.I really do.

I want to get married. I want to have children. But I want my freaking marriage to last until I die. And it's like now the norm for marriages is like what 10-12 years. Some even 10-12 months.And then I thought that maybe they didn't know each other well enough before they got married. But some of them werelike dating for 7 years and the seperate after 2 months? what the hell! It's really depressing. No wonder the freaking birth rate is low!argh.

whatever.

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