World Record: Jennifer Dhanaraj did not touch the computer for TWO WHOLE DAYS! Haha. This shows how absolutely scared for GP. I was reading stuff because I was super scared that I wouldn't have anything to write for the essay.But in the end I had something to write, more than something in fact. I wrote twice as much than I normally would but that was because Charlene who was sitting beside me was writing like crazy and I felt pressurised! So yes, I had to force myself to write more cause if not I would have been sleeping for about 1 hour. By right, i would have finished it in an hour plus. Anyways GP midyear is over. Bleagh. 5 more subjects including tamil. History is scaring me like crazy. So much stuff to study, so many skills to master. I have to master the skill of writing fast. I was trying writing fast that day. I am super NOT FAST! Bleagh. Apparently, you're supposed to write 7 whole lines in a minute.

Anyways, besides impending examinations, the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE IS HERE! Argh.! I absolutely hate it. I mean yes, clothes are CHEAP as hell and it's great. But that also means excessive amount of shopping. We already went shopping yesterday and my mom was going crazy with like 60% sales and what not. If she could she'll buy the whole shop. I feel tired. Probably because of the aftermath of shopping. So will be blogging later. BYEE ((:

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I want something
That's purer than the water
Like we were
It's not there now
Ineloquence and anger
Are all we have

Like saturn's rings
An icy loop around me
Too hard to hold
Lash out first
And all the thing we don't like
Or understand

And it's beginning to get to me
That I know more about the stars and sea
Than I do of what's in your head
Barely touching in our cold bed

Are you beginning to get my point
They're always fighting with aching joints
It's doing nothing but tire us out
No one know what this fight's about

The answer phone
The lonely sound of your voice
Frozen in time
I only need
The compass that you gave me
To guide me on

It's so thrilling but also wrong
Don't have to prove that you are so strong
Cause I can carry you on my back
After our enemies attack

I tried to tell you before I left
But I was screaming under my breath
You are the only thing that makes sense
Just ignore all these present tense

We need to feel breathless with love
And not collapse under its weight
I'm gasping for the air to fill
My lungs with everything that I've lost

--Beginning to get to me by Snow Patrol--

This song is super sad but sweet in a way. Ahh. Just love this song.

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The week is finally over! OH gosh! This has been the most tiring/stressful week ever! Bleaghh. I finally completed my history research assignment... on time. ((: Had to stay up late though, mom wasn't too happy. lol. OH YES! I realised that when I stay up late, I don't sleep in school. I sleep like crazy in the bus, head rolling all over but I don't sleep in school! BUT! I end being tired the day after that. Really sleepy and all. Haha. Am I talking rubbish here?

Anyways, had a math test. I did extremely badly. Actually it's as good as handing in a blank paper. I really need math tuition as soon as possible. I'm arranging for math tuition with Angelina's mom, but nothing has been confirmed probably because I've been so damn busy what with Project Work, history and Econs and Math tests. Bleagh. Oh! I studied for econs test... well kinda and the data response question was damnn hard. Bleagh. BUT at least, the essay was alright I guess.

Anyways, besides the overwhelming load of assignments, had loads of fun actually. On wednesday, after interact, went to eat at Mad Jack's for the first time. For me at least. The place was super empty but the food was good ((: All worth it. but it eventually led to my current state of bankruptcy. My dream of saving up for an iPod is probably... gonna remain a dream that will never come true. Actually I think the reason why I am online basically 24 hours is to listen to music. THEREFORE, if I have an iPod, I wouldn't be online as much maybe? Haha. Oh well, except for downloading stuff.

Oh! Speaking of which! Just caught the last episode of Prison break. Was damn good but I guess I have to wait till bloody September to find out if they get caught. Haha. They actually execute the escape but then the plane they're supposed to get on leaves and they're basically out there in the open with like police cars surrounding and they end it. Like WHAT THE HELL! Bleagh. oh well. So now I've got nothing to watch so I guess I'll continue watching Lost. haha.

Oh yes! Both my sister didn't do very well for their exams and I really don't know what to do. I somehow feel responsible for their underperformance. Not sure why. Maybe it's the whole elder sister thing going on. Bleagh. My sister who got an A* for math PSLE last year failed her math this year. Like wth! I was really angry and again guilty because I didn't really help her much due to my workload or just plain laziness. So therefore, I've promised her that I'd help her with whatever I can. Until then, I can only imagine how my parents would react to her results. I hope they don't think it's because of this new freedom they've given them ever since I entered the JC. Don't know what the connection is there. Bleagh. Their results have given me extra motivation to study harder for my mid-years. I don't know how I'm gonna do though. GP is next week. My GP isn't very fantastic. I'm still struggling with staying awake during compres and all. Bleagh. I want to do well! Really. I get really worried though. But my friends in class give me extra motivation though. They're super duper hardworking! So I guess I have to be too. Well, I'm gonna start my intense revision starting tomorrow. I guess I'd have to start with tamil. Got huge loads of tamil homework. Bleagh. And yes, I screwed up my tamil oral... really badly. My teacher laughed at me. And it's not a good kind of laughter. BLEAGH.

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"These 20 years have gone by so fast. It feels as though we got married not too long ago. Thanks for being a good and understanding wife. LOVE!"

This is the message my dad sent to my mom on their 20th wedding anniversary on 11/5/2006. Although, my dad didn't come up with some kind of poem. This is probably the sweetest thing I've ever heard. I don't know why. When my mom showed my dad the message, my heart just like whoa. I'm so lucky to have parents like them. They have their shortcomings but when you read messages like those... it's like whoa. This is probably the sweetest thing my dad has ever said probably. My dad's not too good with words, or rather expressing his feelings and whatsoever. My dad's basically some kind of rock. haha. Yeah, so when I read that message my mom showed to me... I was basically shocked. See what love can do. Bleagh. Just rambling and all.

So it has been 20 years. I'd say that's really long. Some marriages can't even last 2 years. And my mom I tell you will pamper my dad with like shirts and ermm. other stuff. My dad doesn't buy shirts for himself at all. Haha. I tell you, they're damn sweet. And my dad's become less of a rock lately. The more open and loving I act with them, the less of a rock he becomes. At least that's what my mom says. You know to think, this marriage is an arranged marriage. It's just wow. Maybe having an arranged marriage ain't as bad. BUT I'd rather fall in love ((: I do hope love comes my way... not now. but eventually before 25? Possible? God, I hope so.

Anyways, I'm supposed to be doing history assignment now. Took a rather long break. Bleagh. I better get back. OH!

Happy Mother's Day!

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I've finally gotten myself a new keyboard. Yep, no more spelling mistakes, no more weird awkward spaces and of course no more BRACKETS at inappropriate places. AND! my new keyboard is supposedly 'water proof' design. So, I guess that's kinda good? But, I've gotten used to hesitating before I type the letter 'C'. And, my new keyboard's somehow softer so yeah, it's like got no sound and all which is good! Haha, I absolutely love my brand new keyboard.

So, anyways today I realised that somehow I fail in whatever I do. I just felt it. We had this history debate in school today and I prepared for it although not as much as I should have and i totally screwed up. I was so damn embarrassed of myself... it was horrible, the humiliation and all. I was so freaking demoralised. It's like somehow I felt that I would just fail in whatever I do. But then maybe, it's because I don't really put in effort. But then, I'm like justifying my failure. BLEAGH. This sucks. History... So anyways, today I kind of figured out why I feel uncomfortable talking to some people in my class. It's because I think I am not as cool or as funny as them. Like seriously what the hell. I thought I didn't care but like argh. Was so disappointed in myself. Immense disappointment. Then on the way home was like thinking about whether or not I've changed. I don't think I have but then... maybe I am.

Anyways, on to the brighter side of things. Today had a history test. Don't know how I did but I think definitely better than the Southeast Asian test even though I hardly studied. I wrote alot more but still not enough. But gradual improvement eh? So after that, walking around the school, tried to find the tennis court to watch the tennis match between SA and CJ and we did find the tennis court. So anyways, SA won. BLEAGH. Saw their short skirts and was thinking about what Brother Paul was thinking about their skirts. lol. I think the girls probably saw our skirts and like wanted to burst out laughing! After that, because we were so damnn hot, we decided to go for an ice cream ( Me, XuanTing and Sze Ming) So we went to Island Creamery for ice cream! And I would totally put the picture here but... something's kinda screwed. OH well, would put it another time! Had lots of fun! Lol. Shared a 500ml tub among 4 people as Jessica joined us after that. It was super duper nice! It's called ReversO! ((: Loved it!

Anyways, tomorrow's sports carnival. Hope I'll have fun!((:

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The keyboard is still screwed up BUT I've found a way to deal with it thanks to my absolute brilliance. I decided to just copy and paste the 'c'. Anyways, I realised that my sister, Jovita has a blog! And besides her disgusting spelling(She spells also as oso), She sounds super bimbotic, which is quite unlike her. It's rather disturbing actually. Every sentence she types has got a 'like'. For example, I so totally like failed my test, like oh my god'... oh God. Imagine many sentences like these. And her sms english is disgusting. And the lack of punctuation... no wonder she's not in a hurry to buy the damn keyboard. The atrocious spelling doesn't bother her. Bleagh. So much for being in the smartest class.

Anyways, school's getting more fun unless you count the exessive amount of homework. Being an arts student is really not easy. Never expected it to be but... God this is just crazy! And I've got a cca and all. I'm in... Interact club. It's like a constant cip every thursday at a childcare
centre and all. It's quite ok I guess. And oh! I'm running for exco! ((: I wanted a leadership role I guess. So, the whole group of nominees or whatever are expected to come up with a group proposal on a fundraising project. So, that has been kinda hard given our busy schedules and all.

Miss the cool table a whole lot though! )):

Ok, like Im going to go off now. So, like, totally, BYE! haha.
Trying to talk like my sister. It is totally kinda hard man! Like TOTALLY.

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