When you feel embarassed, I'll be your pride
When you need directions, I'll be the guide.

Passenger Seat-Death Cab For Cutie

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I HAVEN'T BLOGGED IN LIKE GOD KNOWS HOW LONG! Anyways, so many things have been happening. Okay, listing time.

1) After 3 long weeks, Prison Break has finally resumed. And damn! This was probably one of the best episodes in season 2 so far. I actually laughed. ((: Which hardly ever happens while watching Prison Break; you're either cursing or well... staring at Wentworth Miller or Dominic Purcell! ((:

2) I have finished watching the whole season of Princess Hours or Goong. Was never much of a korean drama fan but this show was great! Like, after watching this show, I seriously totally want to fall in love. For all those bored souls out there, I am going to give you this short synopsis.
-- The show is about this royal family in Korea where the King dies in an accident so therfore according to the royal rules, the brother takes over as the King. So the present King has a son named Shin and the previous King had a son named Yul. And long long time ago, a deal was made that whoever the crown prince was ( the King's son), he would have to marry the grandaughter of this commoner who saved the Great King long time ago. And this daughter's named ChaengYung. CG for short. So CG marries Shin, the present Crown Prince and Yul who was the previous Crown Prince returns to Korea and ends up falling for CG. Now, Yul is the kind-hearted, caring, sensitive guy whereas Shin is this guy who doesn't know how to express his feelings and emotions. Tough on the outside, soft on the inside. Shin eventually gradually falls in love with CG and CG too falls in love with Shin. But of course, they won't openly admit their feelings. Shin will think CG loves Yul and CG will think Shin loves Hyorin( Shin's ex-gf whom he actually proposed to but got rejected). So that's the whole story with many many sweet moments in it.
Go to YOUTUBE and watch! Type in Goong. Subtitles included. Watchh!

3) Besides the whole wanting to fall in love, another big thing happened. I GOT PROMOTED. I'M GOING TO JC 2 AND I ACTUALLY PASSED ALL MY SUBJECTS! ((: Now, there's just the A's to deal with and a whole load of holiday homework.

4) I've been reading this book called 'First Person Plural' and it's fucking wonderful. It's about multiple personalities. It's so real! AND it's a true story.

5) Had a retreat on Friday and it ended on Saturday. Although it wasn't as life-altering as the confirmation camp, I realised many many things.
The most important of which was the importance of knowing who you are. Who am I? This questions scares the shit out of me. Cause, honestly, I don't fucking know who the hell I am. Previously, I have lived my life on a 'No worries' policy kind of thing. And I realised at this retreat that knowing who you are is the most essential thing you need to have to survive in the crazy mad world. But the question is, who the hell am I? I've tried soul searching but I don't know. I don't know what I like. I don't know how I'm feeling half the time. I always feel happy or rather satisfied but is this all the surface? I want to feel something more, something deep whether hurt, sadness or whatever. Just something. Sometimes I feel it, but I push it away because I don't want to have any worries. After this retreat, I feel like just ONE MORE PERSON ON THIS PLANET. And if there's one thing I know about myself, it is that I DO NOT WANT TO BE JUST ONE MORE PERSON. I WANT TO MAKE A FREAKING DIFFERENCE IN THE WORLD.

So, will someone please help me to find myself amongst this madness? Please.

5) I want to fall in love. heh. Like that will happen

6) I want my whole class to stay together. Please. I feel that some people in my class deserved the grades that I got more than me. FOr math, I hardly ever practised let alone listen in class. Out of 2 hours, I would only pay attention for 1 hour. Yet, I passed. That's probably because I prayed like mad that I'd pass. Tell me now. Am I a selfish bitch or what? Asking for something I do not deserve. Other people who sure as hell practised alot more than yours truly failed. Like wth. Why can't God be fair? Even if it's against me. I hate feeling guilty and not being able to do anything about it. I'm going to church every Sunday and pray to God they'll make it.

WATCH PRINCESS HOURS.

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I'm quite happy today. Got results back and was glad to realise that it wasn't as bad as the mid-years. Thankfully. And I'm also happy to say that... I might just get promoted. I think I can but there's still math to go and the H1 requirements are still a bit hazy and all so yeah, not too sure. But I definitely feel more secure now that I have passed all subjects so far, including, tamil(!) and ECONS! Haha. So yeah. And most of my class did well actually, I think most of us will be together next year. So, that's good compared to other classes where half the class might not get promoted so yes, it's all good.

And Kat: I just want to tell you that I really do not want you to leave the school cause I do not know what I would do without you... and your gummy bears. But, it's your decision in the end and I can't do anything. Whatever it is, I'll be here for you yes! ((:

Exams aside, I have been so excited lately that I forgot to mention that...

I HAVE AN iPod VIDEO!


How freaking cool is that right? Like my dream come true! I don't have to choose what songs to put in anymore, at least not in the near future. AND I CAN PUT VIDEOS! But the batteries die off damnnn fast so bleaghh. BUT! Not the point.

Ok, besides my brand new iPod, lots of things have been happening lately. And I realised that I miss blogging. The promos are finally over, but still down with Project Work so that sucks but yeah, I'm more or less quite free in a sense. HOWEVER, History lecture today made me realise that I have to make full use of the holidays. I hope to God I study. Seriously.

Oh, if you have a chance, go listen to the song, The Man Who Told Everything by Doves. It's greatt! Just felt like saying that. Heh, anyways, got to go do stuff. Byee((:

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I freaking hate Tamil lessons. I hate the way she fucking picks on me fucking all the time. I hate it and it's seriously getting depressing now that the whole tamil cohort ( only 24 people, but still...) knows that she picks on me. Denesh asked me that day " Ehh, Jenn, Mrs Mohan doesn't like you is it?". Bleaghh. Tamil teachers used to love me or at least they didn't mind me until now.

Fuck, this sucks.

And it's not just because you know, my pride is lost because I am disliked by a teacher or what or the humiliation. But, she freaking picks on me ALL THE TIME. And when I give the wrong answer or what, she freaking shouts at me la. I mean. Arghh.

I wish I took higher tamil or what in secondary school.

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