Ok, been a while since I've blogged. I am in school now. Supposed to have GP now, but teacher let us relax! :) :) Yeah, anyways school today was tiring man. Seriously, I had P.E. Arrived the canteen place thingy quite late, teacher got pissed, asked us to run 3.2km! Bloody hell! Yeah, but wasn't that bad. Maybe, school was tired cause I was depressed yesterday. Bleagh. Somehow other peoples' lives seem to affect me alot.

Yep. Met keisha and Angelina yesterday. It was so good to see them yesterday after like ages! Both looked great as usual. Worth the WAIT! Anyways, yea we were talking. And both of them were going through a mid-life crisis . I just went throught the crisis on sunday so I wasn't overly affected. Whatever it is yall, I am sure you will find your passion; dream soon enough. Both of you are freaking talented! Just pursue your passion! You all will do well in life. And you will be happy with whatever you are doing. So, you know. Don't worry too much. Enjoy being 17 & 18 as much as you can.

Because, I feel that 19 is a freaking deadly age. It's an age where you lose all motivation. BUT if you stay strong, Im sure you will survive being 19. So yea, Don't worry. Just do not lose motivation, don't lose hope; HAVE FAITH.

I think I am not making sense. Anyways, she and him broke up! And somehow was super depressed. They have been together for more than a year! And this thing was so abrupt but yet I could see it coming. Sigh. I somehow wished that things could have turned out better and all. But whatever. It's like love doesnt really make you happy! It's fake shit. Fraud.

Love is the greatest feeling, my ass! It makes you feel miserable, stupid, hurt, depressed and all. Ends making you feel like shit. Seriously. What the hell is love anyways. Bloody hell. I feel so confused. Depressed. Argh. So that was what I was depressed about last night. So slept pretty early. Dreamt about stuff. Got me quite freaked out. So I woke up at like 350 to do math homework. Yeah. Didn't sleep after that. Bleagh. Never think about stuff before you sleep. It is dangerous!

Argh. Anyways, I have been feeling weird. Confusion. Denial. Shit. Never felt like this. I just wished... Bleagh. This shit I am feeling sucks. And they say it's supposed to be beautiful. Whatever.

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