Today was a weird day. I don't know why. I just feel weird. The day was normal but weird at the same time. I don't know how to explain but yeah.Started of the day by not going to church. Woke up late. Kinda. And I was feeling lazy. Then watch Bold and The Beautiful. Funny shit man. Today's episode was about Thomas, a 16 yr old kid hooking up with his 30 something. Oh and they're related somehow. The 30 something old woman,Amber is Thomas's step-brother's ex-wife. It's super freaky I tell you. I mean Amber has seen Thomas a kid and all. And now, they're messing around. This is some unnatural shit. It's like you are baby-sitting this totally cute kid. Changing his diapers and all. And like 15 years later, you're hooking up with the same kid. DUDE! But it's interesting to watch. Morbid. But yes, interesting.
Anyways, the afternoon got more weird somehow. I started feeling all weird in the afternoon. Was going through friendster. Something I haven't done in a long time. Looking at everyone's accounts. Mine's super inactive. It's getting boring. Wait. It is boring. I think it's basically a competition of who is the most popular. Everyone's begging you to write them testimonials and stuff. And then you write I love you, you love me. Blah Blah. It was fun at first but then it gets stupid. Maybe it's stupid to me because I don't have testimonials anymore. Not that I care. But yea. It is stupid.
Ok, to the point now. So I saw this profile of the guy. He was... different. In his profile, he says he doesn't care about what other people think. And I think he actually meant it. Seriously! You know, a lot of people say that they don't care about what other people think. I say that too. But in reality, on some occasions you do care about what other people are thinking about you, saying about you. But he... he really doesn't care. I think he'd probably have lots of enemies and all but he doesn't care. He doesn't give a damn. AND he cares about social issues. In fact, all the music he has composed revolves aroun social,ethical issues and all. Yep. And his music's good. Yep. It is. It is ... don't know how to put it... relevant? I think he want to make a difference in the world with music. He's expressing what he feels about certain issues through his music. Yeah, it's just refreshing. To see a 17 yr old guy who cares about the world and what it is going to be like. And he ... wants to do someting about it. Oh yea, he's the guitarist from the CCA Fair. He's an interesting character I tell you.
So then, the day began to get weird. I wanted to make a difference in the world somehow. I have always wanted to make a difference. But it was all just a thought. But today, I decided I'd work towards it. Firstly, I'd take political science. And work towards getting a job at the UN. Is it too impossible. Well then, I'd work towards it. Oh thank you, strange guitarist at the CCA Fair.
Anyways, after that whole planning out my life. I VOLUNTARILY put back the christmas tree back into the store room. Cleared the ornaments and not once did I complain that I was doing it all alone. In fact, it gave me the time to think. Something, which I haven't done in a long time. Of course I could have used the time to do my Tamil composition. But then, I thought if i started on my tamil, I'd give up halfway. Why not just finish the christmas tree instead? Anyways, after the christmas tree, I did start on my compo. Well, kind of. I just did brainstorming ... in english. It is a start though! I hope this weird change in me will last a while.
Anyways, I was talking to a friend,Ben. He's cool. So we were talking about stuff and I said the word, Bleagh. I say that alot. And he said that the word should be carved onto my tombstone when I died because it suited me. So it would be like...
Jennifer Mary Dhanaraj
27.11.1989-(27.11.2089)
Bleagh.
Wow.
(Insert something appropriate)
Actually what do they write on tombstones? But this is how I want my tombstone to be like.Somehow it's be cool. So if happen to die tomorrow while crossing the road( touch wood), please follow this exact format and something cool if you want to but that's optional. The above format must be followed word for word well except the day I die. That has to depend on the actual day I die of course. If I find that my tombstone isn't how I'd like it to be. I'd haunt everyone I know. You wouldn't want that.