Woke up feeling... different. Firstly because my stupid sister had to jump on my bed to wake me up. I was having a nice dream I think. Bleagh. So I was trying to figure out what the hell I was dreaming about. Anyways, I was just checking out pictures of Angelina's surprise party.

Yep. Pictures were great! Reaction was better! She basically fell on the floor, like slid across the floor! or whatever! It was so damn wow. Yea. She was ... happy! Well, at least I think so. Really had a great time. Her family and relatives were really nice, funny. She has a damn happening life man!

But yea, really had a good time. I ate alot. Her mom kept asking us to eat. and eat. and eat. But it was all good. Yep. :) Her cousins and all were retarded. They were like damn high. They are freaking hilarious. It runs in the blood I guess. Haha. They were like mad. And one of the cousins kept hitting me with the balloon. Ok, it was only like two times but haha it's all good. And he took my pineapple thingy thing while I took the sausage. So yea, all good.

But, I could tell he still loved her. He kept looking at the collage thing with her pictures on it. Sigh. All depressing shit man. I didn't know he loved her so much. Oh well. Whatever. Bleagh. I don't know what to say, or do. Bleagh.

Other than that, my head was clear. So yea, for the tenth time, I had a really good time. Surprise parties are damn cool. And I got to see everyone like after quite a while especially like Grace! Haven't seen her since the 27th December! Great time talking to everyone. Sigh. Her family's seriously super happening! Haha. I think I mentioned it before but yes! They are super happening!

Yep. Anyways, I was thinking. If I were to go overseas to like study or something, would anybody feel sad? Would anybody feel some kind of loss? Because I've been thinking, I have friends and all. But I don't think I have made an impact on their lives or whatever. I'm just there. Sometimes I feel so lonely, it's so freaking unbelievable. I mean everyone's great. It's just me. Bleagh. I hate being bored because these is the shit you think about when you're bored and have nothing to do. I want to have an impact on somebody's life. Like how that guitarist has somehow in one way or another has made me wanna change the way my life is.And he doesn't even know I exist. But still whatever. I don't feel aimless anymore. I kind of have an idea of what I wanna do with my life. No more mid-life crisis.I have some kind of direction in life. I am freaking psycho. Haha. But yea, something like this you know. Or I wouldn't mind someone having to depend on me; but like not financially and stuff but wanting me to always be there. Or whatever. Again I am freaking psycho. Having time on your side makes you freaking psycho. Crazy! Haha.

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