Damn. I didn't go to church again today. Have been feeling lazy and aimless for the past couple of days. The whole choosing of JCs and all has got me thinking about my future. And I just cannot visualise myself after the 'A' levels. I just cannot see myself in a university! My whole life I've just been saying to myself then I'll find out what I am interested in after my 'O' Levels. But it's just not happening. I feel so damn lost. I am pretty sure I want to go to the arts faculty but... my parents are worried that there are not many career prospects. I don't even know what I want to do. I have some kind of idea but just not very sure. Actually, I don't know. Maybe I do know what I want to do. Sigh. I thought things were supposed to get better after the results are out. But what the hell. I've still got 2 years to think about what I want to do. That's a huge advantage of going to JC. Other than that, school's ok.

Most of the people in my class are not staying. Yeah, gonna miss them! haha. Anyways, LOVE UNDER THE STARS WAS GREAT! It's a concert put up by The Musicians' Club from Innova JC at LT1. I thought it was weird that they played at the LT; it's so... restricted! But nevertheless, it was wondeful! Oh my God! I get chills thinking about it. They are all so damn talented! I got oddly jealous at one point when they introduced the parents of this talented Indian drummer to everyone. And, you could just see the pride on their faces. They were so damn proud of him! My parents have never ever looked at me like that before. I was so jealous! I felt useless! But he was really good. Played in the same band as the GUITARIST FROM THE CCA FAIR. haha. The guitarist was great! I almost died of orgasm! It was like wow! I was so happy he didn't lose his talent after cutting his hair! Yeah, he was great!

AND SHARON DID GOOD TOO! YOU WERE BEAUTIFUL AND SOUNDED GREAT AND YOUR DEDICATION TO ALVIN WAS BEAUTIFUL TOO ((:

BUT, he just got attached to a girl on Valentines' Day. Damn. But the girl is nice, talked to her a few times before. It was saddening to find that out. Sigh. But, I can still admire him from afar; not like I was gonna take any action. lol. Yeah, my friend told me what he did for his girl on V'day and I could just melt and die. And the girl wasn't even me. He wrote a poem and sang a song or something along those lines. Sweet!

I don't think I'll ever experience anything like that in my lifetime man! If ever a guy proposes to me( HOPEFULLY) , I think he'll do the singaporean thing and ask me if I want to apply for HDB flat! Damn. I AM A LOSER!

Anyways, after the concert ended went out for dinner/supper with Shreeya, Nadia and Michelle. I had Mee goreng, which was delicious!!Yep, after that we headed for the interchange! Then I got to my berth or whatever you call it. Then like a really bad nightmare, the guiutarist was there with his girl! I mean like, you have a good time talking to your friends totally forgetting that the first guy you've liked in so many damn years is attached just appears there WITH HIS GIRL! Why the hell did I have to turn my head around or else I wouldn't have seen them! Bleagh. It's so nightmare-ish! Damn. So I concentrated on the music blasting in my ears thanks to my mp3 player. If it wasn't for the music, I would have just died! Their bus came before mine, so all was good. Didn't look at them at all, was very tempted to but I didn't give in! ((:

Sigh. But everything's good now. I am not overly affected actually unfortunately. I think I've got a heart of stone. Damn.

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