Went for the thanksgiving mass at IJ TP on Wednesday. Was at 0745 I think but we reached there at like 0805. Got there just in time for the homily but still missed like 1/4 of it. Everyone was just laughing their heads off but I didn't understand Father Simon. So I was just like... bleagh. Yeah, and I was so annoyed at Miss Shanthi! She was like deliberately looking for people with like problem with their dressing! And she bought extra t-shirts and ask the problem girls to wear those t-shirts. What the hell. And some of those problem girls didn't really have a ...problem with their dressing. It was not revealing at all just a simple t-shirt. Like Nat Ho, she was wearing a black t-shirt and black tapered pants and she was asked to change into a white shirt. Maybe she looked too ... gothic? haha or something. But still, it was not like she had heavy eyeliner and whatever. But ok maybe I except that black is not really a church-ish colour but there were others with yellow t-shirts and all getting caught and were forced to wear oversized white t-shirts. Seriously, I cannot and couldn't find anything wrong with yellow giordano-like t-shirts!Bleagh. But anyways, after that went to Burger King with Keisha and Angelina and talked for l ike 3 hours plus.

Damn, I realised I have been spending alot of money lately on... food. I am going to get like fatter! I was supposed to save 80 bucks but ended up saving about 50 bucks I think. Every week I eat at like some high-maintenance place like Pasta Mania yesterday, and Mos Burger the day before! Well, at least I get to spend time with friends. Gonna miss all of them like crap once I leave Innova! And I won't get to see my guitarist anymore. Oh man! Haha. :( Sigh. But I have a feeling that by the end of the week, I won't like him anymore! Damn! That is if more people tell me stuff about him.

Anyways, I was talking to a friend last night and he freaking changed so much... for the worst! But, I am not really in a position to say anything because I am not close to him at all. But I've known him for a couple of years, maybe 2-3 years. I wanted to tell him that I am not comfortable with whatever he's doing but then I felt I am in no position to say that simply because I am not close. And yet, I call him my friend. If he really was my friend, I would have discouraged whatever the hell he 's doing. But me, being the worst friend in the world acted like as though what he was doing was cool! I fucking hate myself! I am most probably the worst friend in the world.!

So, the whole of last night I felt guilty for not telling him what he was doing was just wrong. I hate his fucking friends for introducing him to all this shit. I wish I could just rewind the night! I just wished he stayed there dammit!

Bleagh. Whatever.

I just wished everything had turned out alright between them.

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