Farewell.

Listen up, YO!
hahaha.
I'm changing to livejournal.
Finally.
LINK ME OKAY.
MY COOL NEW BLOG!
HTTP://DJ-JENND.LIVEJOURNAL.COM
Hover over the thingaling above if you're too lazy to type in.
Haha.
Farewell blogger.
It was good while it lasted.
It's not you, it's me.
haha.

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Forever Young.

Woohoo. I can now use colour!(((:

Have been night-studying since monday.
Has been pretty productive.
Thanks to all my night study partners!
Yunzeeeee, Kat, Ting, Sam (Hybrid Rabbit), Charlene, PP, Weixin, Feline.
Yay.
Doing math like crazy these past few days (and nights).
It's quite fun to do once you've got the hang of it.

OH!
And today's pre-night study super fun!
Went to eat at Coronation Plaza, Golden Rooster.
Chicken chop!
Laughed our ass off talking about the most exciting school couple break up yet.
Thinking of potential future boyfriends for the girl also known as "The Dirty Golden Belle"
HAHAHA.
Had fun yall!

Right before night study was DAMNNN FUNNY!
(Talking about THE breakup)
Sam's friend brings up the topic.
Everyone's like 'Whoa, breaking news all'
Everyone else joins in, laughs like mad.
Sam's Friend: (Imitates CNN broadcaster)(!)
Sam: AMSTERDAM BROKE UP WITH KIMCHI.
I LAUGH LIKE MAD!
ME: (disapproving tone) 1 month pass expiry date pass already.
EVERYONE LAUGHS KNOWINGLY.
I then remind PP about her even worse statement about how the expiry date is shorter.
EVERYONE LAUGHS.!

If you don't live under a rock and you are in CJ, you know for sure what's THE breakup.

I LOVE NIGHTSTUDY LA. I so totally love my friends yall, like ohmygawd(!)HAHA.
Love, DJ JennD (!)
New name cool yes?

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Nevermore.

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Hang Me Up To Dry.

My blogger thing is weird. Or maybe it's like the new improved thing. It's like all the tools are all over the place.
I prefer the old, more organised one.

Anyways, this past week has been a total ohmygosh week.
What with TWO tutorial outlines and a history test.
And other stuff. Which I have yet to complete.
My gosh, I'm so glad I survived.
((:

I probably survived because of the thought that dear Szeming, Ting and Charissa were coming over to play monopoly and have fun.
And we did! Although Charissa decided to go back home )):
Haha, Ting was the market spoiler who spoilt markets for me, szeming and my sister.
Haha. Stupid girl!
Yepp, my parents being so hospitable and all bought for them doughnuts and all that.
And was so nice to them!
Haha, after they left, they scolded me for not cleaning up my room enough. HAHA!
Yepp, really had fun!

Anyways, you know just when you thought the stress is all over, you get stressed out all over just that it's about a different thing altogether.
LIT NIGHT!
Firstly there's the skit thing we have yet to prepare but are supposed to present it on TUESDAY!
AND also there's the more important issue ( at least for me) of what to wear!
My god, I've never been this stressed out for lit... EVER.
Bleaghhh.
I am planning not to look like a loser at lit night.
WHERE EVERYONE'S PROBABLY GONNA WEAR DAMN GLAM DRESSES!
I thought of wearing a dress, but decided against it.

So anyways, I bought a top which in my opinion is super nice ((:
I'm super happy with it.
Probably the first time, I've been happy with something I bought for more than 2 days.
I usually regret after 24 hrs.

I hope I'm not underdressed man.
It's almost like a dress rehearsal to prom.
God, help me.

I hope my dad can apply for more credit cards, them maybe we'll have more Takashimaya vouchers.

((:

OHMYGOSH. My blogger is so weird. I can't even add colour and bold and all that stuff. Bleaghh.
My world's turning upside down.

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Brighter Than Sunshine.

Happy Birthday Goh Szeming!!!
You're 18.
I LOVE YOU OKAY.
Please don't let my love for you be overshadowed by R_ _ _ _ _ _!
You know who right? Haha. Joking.
Anyways, Thanks for being my friend despite my lameness!

Yepp, it's her birthday. We gave her this thingy thing. Like vanguard or something. Pictures will be up soon.
Charissa prepared it, so THANK YOU!
Yay. I can't wait for the pictures.
I was supposed to go for this dinner thing with Ting, Szeming and Charissa BUT my mom's been pretty anal about me coming home late and all this past week so I decided to be good.
NOTE: Latest I've been home this week is 9-ish! WTH.
I think I'm totally being classified a loser now.
Bleaghh.
Off days for my mom are evidently not good!

OHH YES! I FORGOT ONE VERY IMPORTANT DETAIL.
OUR FAMILY FINALLY OWNS A GODDAMN CAR!
God, like finally.
No more lying to the cab driver that I'm sec 3 anymore just so we can fit 4 people into the back seat. Although, I can certainly pass off as sec 3, which is just purely depressing.
Haha.
But yes, we got a car, but I've yet to experience my first ride to school.
I'm so excited for it, that I was so upset about the labour day holiday. Haha.
But, I've got tons of work to catch up on, so this holiday's definitely a blessing.

Oh, so anyways, the eye-candy I've been secretly... eyeing on is not my eye-candy anymore.
Haha, it wasn't so much of a secret.
Whole class got to know of my disgustingly bad taste in boys.
Apparently this guy is kind of like a disgusting loser la.
Like a wannabe loser.
Not the nice kind of loser that I am.

I always pick the wrong boys.
I thought I could finally eye-candy someone for the FIRST time in CJ, but apparently not.
Bleaghh.
The last eye-candy I had had suicidal tendencies back at Innova like 1 1/2 years ago.
HAHA.
Gosh, I should stick to older men la.
Seriously, like James Spader. ((:
Correction: Charming old men.
Haha.

Speaking of which, Vivian Balakrishnan is coming over to my block, or somewhere nearby for a 'Meet The People' session.
((:
Super exciting.
He IS a charming old man!
Haha.

I'm tired already.
Bye.((:

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Love Songs. ((:

1. Brand New Colony by The Postal Service.
2. New Slang by The Shins.
3.Passenger Seat by Death Cab For Cutie.
4. I will Follow You Into The Dark by Death Cab For Cutie.
5. The Investigation by Sugarcult.
6. Singing Softly To Me By Kings Of Convenience.
7. Such Great Heights by The Postal Service/ Iron & Wine.
-- The Iron&Wine version would be perfect for a wedding! ((:
8. Love and Some Verses by Iron & Wine.
9. Closer By Joshua Radin.
10. The Fear You Won't Fall by Joshua Radin
11. Northern Sky by Nick Drake
12. Pink Moon by Nick Drake
13. It's Good To Be In Love by Frou Frou.
14. Say Yes by Elliott Smith
15. Between The Bars by Elliott Smith.
16. Ever So Sweet by The Early November.
17. Run by Snow Patrol
18. Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol.
19. Lock Sprot Krock by Nikola Sarcevic
20. Look After You by The Fray
21. Be Be Your Love by Rachael Yamagata
22. Crown of Love By Arcade Fire
23. Sway by The Perishers
24. Simple, Starving To Be Safe by Daphne Loves Derby
25. Gotta Have You by The Weepies
26. Closer by Travis.
27. This Never Happened Before by Paul McCartney
28. Spiders by Lovedrug
29. Brightest by Copeland
30. By My Side by Copeland

Yep, these are my favourite-est love songs for now.
Check them out if possible.
Most of the songs can be heard on http://www.radioblogclub.com.
((:
Enjoy.!

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The Comeback.

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Why Does It Always Rain On Me?.

I figured the song title would be perfect because it has been raining incessantly.
But I like it.
Especially when it rains when I'm listening to the song. I feel extremely happy.
Although, I gather, it's not really supposed to be a happy song. I don't know. It sounds so cheery though.

ANYHOW, today was a great day. Firstly, I did some research on designer jeans/cult branded jeans. Or however you'd want to call them. Haha.
Winson, Sam and Jessie were talking about all these weird brands of jeans that I was totally clueless about.
Sigh. They're all so expensive anyway.
No wonder I don't know.
I'll just stick to Levi's and GAP.
Haha.

Anyways, I'll post my findings on the jeans tomorrow ALONG with my love song playlist which I have compiled ((:
Confirm heart-melting songs.
Gosh, my english was so... off. Bleaghh.

Ohh, anyways, I was such a smiley person going home today.
Haha.
Probably because of the talk with dear ever-so-fascinated Ting and also,
because I might have seen a special someone at the bus stop.
HAHAHA.
He's relatively good-looking only la. And you know how that's a rare sight in CJ. Haha.
((:


And also, because my 'Chill-Out Songs' playlist played 'Why Does It Always Rain On Me' again, while it was raining. My list has about 120 songs by the way, so the odds are quite low that the song was actually played and that it was also played on a rainy day eh.

Sounds so H1 math. Probability I think. What's the probability that both events will happen?
Bleaghhh.

No wonder I'm failing math.
Sigh.

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It's Good To Be In Love.

Hello! I'm supposed to be studying econs now according my well-planned time-table. But I'm procrastinating a bit.
Gonna watch Heroes in a bit! Gosh, like finally after god knows how many months!
SUPER EXCITED.

OHH. And speaking about excited.
I just heard the new single from Snow Patrol called Signal Fire which is gonna be featured on the Spider-Man 3 soundtrack.
And the song's damn good!
Really.
It's the same old same old basically.
But I love their same old stuff.
You'll definitely like it if you loved 'Open Your Eyes' and 'Run'
Yepp. AND THE LYRICS ARE WONDERFUL.!



The perfect words never crossed my mind,
'cause there was nothing in there but you.
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me.
All I wanted just sped right past me.
While I was rooted fast to the earth,
I could be stuck here for a thousand years,
Without your arms to drag me out.

There you are standing right in front of me
There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety

No I don't wanna wait forever

In the confusion and the aftermath,
You are my signal fire.
The only resolution and the only joy,
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes.

There you are standing right in front of me
There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety.

There you are standing right in front of me
There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety.

No I don't wanna wait forever.

Such a sigh-able song eh.

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Caring Is Creepy.

Was just re-listening to some songs that I haven't listened to in a while. And I came across a song that I haven't listened to in DAMN LONG.
Brand New Colony by The Postal Service.
It's the perfect love song! Seriously.
I decided that it will be played at my wedding. ((:
There's this one line which is damn beautiful and it applies to me;

I'll be the platform shoes and undo what heredity's done to you...
You won't have to strain to look into my eyes

And so after, thinking about that, I realised that I want to come with a list of potential wedding songs. It's still being done. So, it will be my next post. ((: So exciting!



Anyways, I predict this week is gonna be a hectic week. I've given myself a sort of study time table that I plan to obediently follow.
OH! I went shopping at Popular the other day. Haha. Sounds so unglam.
Anyways, yes I did. And I bought alot of stuff that would hopefully allow me to be more organized and what not. Like files. And lit notebooks for... Lit. I realised I keep losing my foolscap! Bleaghh.

So yeah, hopefully this time, my attempt at being organised will last a while. My previous two attempts in the last 4 months have failed miserably. Like really. I became even more disorganised. But I have a good feeling about the third time eh.

Haha.
Sigh. Just wish me luck for the weeks ahead.

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In The Waiting Line.

Today started off with a huge shock. Read the newspapers in the morning and saw the front page news about the University campus Massacre that killed freaking 33 people including the gunman himself.
Gosh.
I think if anyone were to go to American, the person probably has a 1 in 5 probability that he/she will be shot or something.
Seriously.
America seriously has to do something about the Second Amendment and control the freaking gun culture.

Anyways, besides the shocking awful news, there was still happiness waiting after 2 pm.
Free Cone Day at Ben & Jerry's.
Like woohoo! IT WAS FREE.
I had a chunky monkey AND sweet cream and cookies.
Heh. Great fun and I was a happy girl all.
Free Ice Cream!

Anyways, after that went to sit and talk at this eating place thingy thing at The Cathay.
They ate some oyster thing which was super smelly.
And we talked.
and GOSSIPPED !
Haha. Gossiping really makes time pass by DAMN fast la.

Anyways, after a while it was just left with four of us; Me, Szeming, Feline and Randall.
And dear Randall had to comment on how the damn skinny girls in school are actually a little fat!
Making me feel like a damn dinosaur!
ROAR!
Hence, I have decided to lose weight.
I have lost a big of weight though since the start of school.
I think. Either that or the weighing machine's spoilt.
Either way, I wouldn't want to know.
So anyways, lose weight it is.

OR I can just tell myself that Indians should be big and voluptuous.
Haha. Whichever works. Bleaghhhhhhh.

Oh and I also realised that ugly people have a one in a million chance of getting a boyfriend or whatever.
Because, according to Randall, no one goes for personality first. Looks come first.
HAHA. Sad!
Not that I want one la.
But felt super demoralised. )):

But actually ah, although I have come to terms with my ugliness and have also come to accept it, I totally feel comfortable. I wouldn't want to have any other face.
Hmmm. Does that make sense?
As long as I'm happy.

"I was happier then with no mind-set"
-New Slang by The Shins.

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I so totally cannot wait. Gosh.

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The Fear You Won't Fall.

I am supposed to do my tutorial outline but something about the 'Golden Age of Capitalism' is putting me off.
Bleaghh.
Anyways, we were supposed to do 2.4 today; even psyched myself throughout the whole weekend for it.
BUT, we got to play soccer. Thankfully. It was like OMGosh hot!
So anyways, soccer was fun!
Tiring nonetheless.
I scored a goal.
It was supposed to be a rather proud moment don't you think? But it turned into a rather embarassing moment thanks to Nick of course.
Yunxi scored 2 goals eh. Hidden talent.

Today was filled with quite a few embarassing moments. Well, at least I survived the monday blues.
Thanks to the song Grace Kelly by Mika.
Such a happy song.
All his songs are great though.
I never knew pop music could make me so happy.
Thank God he doesn't have the cheesy dance moves which mimic words ala boybands.

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Everybody Needs Fence To Lean On.

The words Blueberry Vodka has been stuck in my head.
Kat knows why. Haha.
Some retard apparently brought Blueberry Vodka to school in an F&N bottle.
Bleaghh.
And you'd think people who went to JC are supposedly smarter.
Evidently, this is not true.
Anyways, this week has been the week where you can catch up on your sleep. No tests. Hardly any MAJOR assignments.
Next week though it's gonna be a killer.
I have an econs test. And the topic is seriously a killer.
I have a math test. And I have to do well.
So that when my parents see that I managed to get a 20 for common tests, they would actually manage to recover from the heart attack seeing how I managed to pass the test.

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Caught By The River

Hello. I seem to blogging more nowadays eh.
I suppose I am relatively free for now.
I finished most of my assignments during the holidays.
Yepp. Just finished cleaning the house.
With the absence of my parents, the house has almost become a pig sty.
I think there was a grammatical error there but I'm too lazy to correct it.

Haha. Anyways, been cleaning the house because parents coming back tomorrow at 6-ish in the evening.
So want to give them a pleasant surprise.

Anyways, pleasant surprise is what I did not get this morning or rather the whole day.
Econs common test, didn't do as well as I would have liked.
AND I STUDIED.
Bleaghh.BLEAGHH.

Mass PE was bad. But I didn't exert myself that much. Was too lazy to tell myself 'I could do it.' Not that that would work BUT I try.

Just a couple more weeks till NAPFA. I am praying to God I would freaking pass.
Standing Broad Jump, you watch out.

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Mr. Blue

Hello. Oh gosh, school's starting tomorrow.
Bleagh.
I am so not prepared for all the upcoming assignments
AND the assignments which are not completed as yet.
Arghh.
I am supposed to do my PBL but I'm looking for every possible reason not to do it.
Nevermind. I will start in ten minutes' time.
Anyways, not having your parents at home for 5 days can be pretty boring
AND ANNOYING.
My sister has automatically taken the role of my mom when by default I'm the one supposed to play mom.
Bleaghh.
But she is treating me like how my mom would treat me BUT worst. haha.
Like I'm some irresponsible, immature kid who doesn't know how to clean up after myself.
SO not true.!
I know how to clean up after myself okay. When the situation calls for it.
So anyways, she goes to school and CALLS me from school to fold the clothes or do the laundry.
WTH.
Even my mom doesn't do that.
Bleaghh.
I feel 8 instead of a going-to-be-18-soon kid.

OHMYGOSH! School's today! Considering the time is 12.19 AM.
Bleaghh.
Someone hit me with a bat please.
Or reality will get to me first.

I will survive.
Bleagh.

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Bleaghh. Confirm can't go for the Rachael Yamagata. Can't even afford the 40 bucks student concession. Plus I wouldn't have anybody to go with. AND THEY ARE SOLD OUT. ONLY 60 BUCKS AND 118 BUCKS AVAILABLE.
Bleaghhhh. I really like her. )):
I thought I could manage and save up on time. Like the Muse concert. Somehow managed to get money on time. Or maybe get tickets sponsored by my uncle.
Unfortunately, she aint popular enough for my cousin to know her, HENCE no free tickets.
God, I need to get a job.
SOON.
If it weren't for the A's.
Gosh.
Anyways, moving on.
I need to get my homework done.
I attempted today, but the source based confused me like shit.
I was so confused, I started daydreaming.
I've been daydreaming alot lately.
It's so not my thing. Haha.

Anyways, parents leaving for India tomorrow.
My mom especially thinks that she's leaving for Mars or something.
So totally anxious.
She's scared to leave her 3 totally mature, level-headed daughters alone at home.
Okay, maybe only one of them ((: is mature and level-headed.
But I'm sure we'll manage.
Plus, it's only for four days.

Oh yes, since it's the holidays, and I'm kind of taking a break but still trying to balance wor rather unsuccessfully... but I tried.
So anyways, since I only have ten bucks left, I have to unfortunately restrain myself from going out.
And hence, I have found a few new TV shows that are totally worth staying at home for.
The first one is this show called "The Black Donnellys"
Firstly, the Donnellys are NOT black.
Haha. It's basically this drama about four brothers and how one of the brothers, Tommy Donnelly sacrifices everything to take of his other 3(Most of them are screw-ups) brothers.
Yeah. He basically killed two Mob bosses, the Italian Mob boss and the Irish Mob boss to save his terribly screwed up brother Jimmy Donnelly.
And in the process, he loses the only girl he's ever loved his entire life.
Damn nice show.
A bit of violence. Morbid, dark humour. But all worth it.
I hope this show comes to Singapore. But I highly doubt it, it doesn't have stellar ratings although, the ratings are up and critics are raving about it.

And the other show is a sitcom called "The Winner". It's about a loser basically, a guy who's 32, still lives in his parents' house- never had a job/only kissed a girl once BY ACCIDENT/still a virgin.
Haha.
The show's damn funny as he starts exploring his "wonder years" together with his 14 year old sidekick and new best friend, also the son of the woman he's always loved.
DAMN FUNNY.

But seriously, go check out The Black Donnellys on youtube. It doesn't have a crazy plot like Lost, Prison Break or Heroes or whatever. Just real hardcore drama. It's a breath of fresh air actually.

Anyways, there's a video of the ending scenes of 'The Black Donnellys' where Tommy decides to save his screw up brother Jimmy by killing both Mob bosses. Song's absolutely wonderful.

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World Spins Madly On.

So, Friday night was rockafella night. All the bands were good actually, I was expecting a few screw-ups here and there but no one screwed up that bad. Pretty memorable night, with the hilariously entertaining but still awesome Vacuum Cleaners band ( it's truly the revenge of the nerds) and the 5 minutes moshing experience; to Muse's Hysteria ((: Yepp, worth the ten bucks I paid.

Anyways, I was wondering if knowing a secret of a person makes you closer to the person by default. Haha. Just a thought. Was watching Notes On A Scandal so you can see where I get my randomness from.

OH MY GOD. I am so freaking bored it's un-freaking-believable. BLEAGHH. I should start on my assignments but I just can't get started no matter how much I try.
Gosh.
God, help me get rid of this boredom NOW.!

I realised that school and the whole idea of going to school keeps me sane, if not, I'll die from boredom. COUPLED WITH THE FACT that there's no food and I'M BROKE. AGAIN.

I'm cranky.
I look like a horse (?)
I am black.
I am cranky.
Cranky and Black ->Ugly sight.
Cranky Cranky Cranky.

bleagh.

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Life is beautiful
We live until we die

When you run into my arms
We steal a perfect moment.
Let the monsters see you smile
Let them see you smilling.

Do I hold you too tightly?
When will the hurt kick in?

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated.
We barely make it.
We don't need to understand,
There are miracles, miracles.

Yeah, life is beautiful.
Our hearts, they beat and break.

When you run away from harm,
Will you run back into my arms,
Like you did when you were young?
Will you come back to me?

I will hold you tightly
When the hurting kicks in.

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated,
we barely make it.
We don't need to understand,
There are miracles, miracles.

Stand where you are.
We let all these moments pass us by.

It's amazing where I'm standing,
There's alot that we can give.
This is ours just for the moment,
There's alot that we can give

Life Is Beautiful by Vega4

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Hello!
CT's are FINALLY OVER.
I was planning to enjoy my weekend before the confirm terrible results come in.
BUT, I have history SBQ to do. Gosh.
So, anyways, this past week has been pretty hectic with all the studying, worrying and headaches and what not.
So, survived the terrible CT's, watched The Pursuit Of Happyness again. Legally, this time.
Haha.
Next day ate Pepper Lunch for the first time after results.
Damn good, but was quite stressed over the cooking and all.
Heh. Talked about pretty deep(?) stuff with Ting, Szeming.
Was rather enlightening.
Then went off for Lit Film Night at school straight after.
Zehra looked damn hot but still managed to look scary, even managed to scare Ting.
Heh.
Our half of the cohort watched this black and white gothic film called 'The Raven'
Super cliched. But still managed to have the scare factor. Pretty cool. And funny.

Yep. ANYWAYS, I MANAGED TO CLEAR TAMIL. Not exactly a pass, but don't have to retake. It's the minimum requirement so yeah. Not too good. But I'm okay with it. AND surprisingly, it's good for my mother too.
But she was on medication at the time, so God knows whether she actually fully comprehended what I got.
S and a pass for oral.
Bleagh.

Hopefully, the A's would be better.
I really want to do well seeing how alot of people did reasonably well this year.

Sigh.

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I'd Rather Dance With You.

Common tests are coming soon and I don't even feel ready at all. Bleaghh.
But I'm studying.
So that's good.
Anyways, I feel that something's not right with me.
Or maybe it's just my sister bothering me.
She keeps saying I'm depressed... just because I've been studying more than usual lately.
Crazy cat.

I'm trying very desperately to find a nice layout for friendster, saves me from the terrible thing called boredom. But I just feel more frustrated.
I think doing math is so much better.
I'm such a noob.
And I seriously need to get a computer like soon.
I think this computer is so old that it's probably considered an antique; like one of those first generation computers.
So any antique lovers, please do consider my almost-antique computer.

I want to buy so many goddamn things but I'm so broke.
I've got 2 books I want to buy.
A whole lot of CD's-- due to my resolution to actually buy more albums instead of d/lding.
Gosh.
OHH! My father just bought a car a couple of days back. It's arriving on the 25/4.
So have to wait for quite a while.
BUT! Purchasing a car= cutting down on other expenses.
Therefore, my original plan of asking for a raise in allowance has to be scraped. Bleaghh.

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You Have My Attention.


Bleaghh. This blog is close to being dead. Have to resuscitate all and hence I'm here. The oppurtunity cost of blogging is of course doing studying for my history SBQ test tomorrow. I don't know if I phrased that right.

Anyways, have had a pretty bad start to the week. Firstly, the death of a family member. It was rather depressing seeing how she was so cheery but ended up doing a stupid thing. Sigh. But this has thought me to be more aware of the people around me, to detect any problems. So please, anyone who has problems or what, talk to someone, anyone.

My whole family is still at shock over this tragedy and don't think we'll ever be able to get over it. Goes to show how much the family suffers.

Anyways, this freaking morning, me and my sisters got freaking screamed at on the bus by some absolute stranger.
Literally screaming.
Scared the freaking shit out of us I tell you.
I have never ever been scolded like that in my entire life.
Thank God, CJ's only one bus stop away.
God, I seriously start shaking everytime I think about it.
Bleaghhh.

Valentines' Day is tomorrow eh! Reminds me of my very depressing lack of a love life.
But nevermind, single is good.
Enjoy the single days.!
Hopefully, I won't be enjoying these days for the rest of my life.
But V-day is also a good day to spend with friends so not so bad.
The exchanging of cookies, chocolates etc.
All so fun.
But of course, it'd be nice to have some sort of surprise on V-day.
Haha.
Dream.

But but but but... I'm not desperate.
Just that this year, there're so many damn couples within CJ itself, it's kinda hard not to notice that having that special someone is actually quite special.
I don't think I am making sense.

My sister told me that if I continue to look like a horse/bird/ God knows what other animal AND continue to act retarded and supposedly immature(?!?!?!), I will remain single for the rest of my life.
Plus the fact that I'm Indian supposedly makes me more undesirable...

ACCORDING TO MY SISTER AH. She is this super anti-Indian kid.

Obviously, she's never looked at the mirror before. Haha. Retarded kid.

Oh! And I realised that I like CJ and my class the oh-so-wonderful 2T04 a lot a lot better this year. Like a lot better. Maybe it's because of the classroom... maybe not. haha.
Nevertheless, I'm happy knowing I'm in a class like 2T04.

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My first sushi. ((:

Haven't blogged for a while, BUT everything's going great! Alot of stuff happened from the last blog post till now and I'm oh so excited to share! First's first, I successfully survived the countless tests and not to mention homework which includes the irritatingly irritating PBL Assignment. On the freaking UN. Killer. Yepp, I think Superman helped me survive!

So anyways, after the damn stressful week, our class decided to have a barbeque at Charlene's place. Charlene's place I tell you is like a freaking 6 star hotel room. The girl's got a huge ass TV. Nice flooring. A freaking huge shoe cabinet... with shoes in it. I have a huge cabinet too but it's empty from the lack of shoes. Anyways, yeah, you go to her room, and you'll see your dream bedroom. Or maybe even better.

She's got a freaking walk-in closet. With a wonderful underwear drawer. Sigh.

Anyways, we went shopping and all for the barbeque then started to get ready at the pit. All fun stuffwith exciting episodes like the great rat scurrying around. Haha. Fun stuff!

OH YES! Before the barbeque, I FINALLY ATE MY VERY FIRST SUSHI! Ting, Charlene and Sze Ming thought it was time to eat sushi and I did. I had a violent reaction though but the sushi was quite good. ((: Got picture all!

Okay, besides that went for the Hoobastank gig. Had free tickets so had no choice. Haha. But they're quite friendly but when you have muse to compare to, it's obviously not as good. BUT BUT I took a lot a lot of pictures. The only thing I enjoyed doing. I was super infront! And I only reached at about 1830! Wth. Shows the popularity huh.

Anyways, more work to do. See you soon!

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So, yesterday met Melissa, Claire, Pamela after what seemed like a million years.
All look so damn hot that I was a freaking ugly duckling.
Haha, but it was great to see them.
We ate at Billy Bombers and spent a bomb. Haha. Wasn't that bad la. Just wanted to say that.
But I am kind of broke now but nevermind all worth it.
Had fun laughing, had fun laughing t myself. Miss all the times. When they called me dinosaur all.
I'm glad to see they're all the same especially since alot of people have changed since secondary school and all.
Reminiscing the secondary school days, laughing at memories of Melissa sleeping, and some Jo Teo episodes were damnn fun.
Lol. I miss secondary school ((:

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Hello! ((:
I'm once again a happy girl and if I were do die now, I'd die smiling and of course, satisfied.
Yepp, Muse was great.
Worth the 95 bucks I saved for with my effort and maybe worth even more than that.

Everyone in class was telling me how some people were campipng overnight at Fort Canning and got me all scared and all that I wouldn't be able to see a thing because of my... shortness. So I decided to go there early even though Keisha and Shreeya end school at 5-ish. So anyways, went back to my place with Sze Ming and Kat and changed. Haha. They were ogling at all the hot people on the red carpet at the Golden Globes.

So anyways, later met Charissa and her friend, Denise. They ate lunch but I didn't cause I somehow didn't want to eat, an action which I ould later regret. Then they followed me to Fort Canning and waited a while then everyone left except dear Charissa. ((: Waited for me till Keisha arrived which was super super nice of her! Thank you! Yepp, talked and laughed away. And complaining about the smokers smoking and the smoke smell in our hair all. Bleaghh.
Then, Keisha arrived then soon after Shreeya arrived. And waited for a while. And we went in! ((:

So, anyways, had to wait for like 1 1/2 hours. Super stuffy, super crowded, super annoyed at all the people from behind trying to get infront all. So anyways, after much await, they came out!
And they played... my favourite song from their Black Holes and Revelations album, Knights Of Cydonia. The solo in the middle made my heart murmur millions of time. Singing along, jumping and all was damnn good. ((: Then they played all their good songs like Hysteria, New Born, Feeling Good, Invincible, Soldier's Poem, Bliss, Butterflies and Hurricanes AND three of my favourite-est songs from Muse. Plug-In Baby, Time is Running Out and Stockholm Syndrome. ((: They played other songs which of course included Starlight, Butterflies and Hurricanes and all.
Overall, it was damnn good. They sound DAMN GOOD LIVE!

My Claustrophobic problem kinda disappeared after a while, and I didn't mind so much that people were stepping on my shoes, pushing against me and all and that I was sweating like a pig and all.

Bleaghhh, I wished it didn't have to end so goddamn fast. Haha. Dreamt of the gig all at night. And everytime I think of it ah, my heart murmurs. haha. But he didn't interact as much but I guess I didn't mind. The music did all the talking. Oh yes, and the entire set was damn nice! ((:

I was glad that my first concert got to be Muse. I wouldn't wish for it to be any other band.

My heart murmurs as I think about it. Sigh. ((:

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HELLO HELLO HELLO!
I AM A HAPPY HAPPY GIRL.
((:
Needless to say, I've survived the first 2 weeks of school AND still going strong.
My new found organization skills are helping me cope. I now write all my homework down instead of using my supposed good memory to remember.
So now, I do most of my homework on time.
But the reason why I actually do all my homework is because of my insomnia.
Haha. Not really insomnia but close to it. I can't sleep until it's like 2-plus and considering I wake up at 5.45 ish, it's quite bad, but fortunately I don't really sleep in school. The tiredness kicks in at about 3 -ish.
Speaking of waking up early! I now have to go to school freaking early to open the door! Sounds retarded but yes, With power, comes responsibility. Bleaghh. haha. I'm so proud of myself that I am able to go to school early, cause those who know me know that I'm not very punctual.
Looks like there is gonna be a new and improved me this year. (((: Haha. I'm talking rubbish!

So anyways, because of this new found ability to sleep late, I have no choice but to do my homework so I can fall asleep.
Also, I have borrowed many books from Charissa in case I finish my homework 'early' or what.
So, sleeping late has it's advantages.
Anyways, Muse is in 4 days time. Gosh, I'm so excited, I can hardly breathe!
And yeah, I have been in a relatively good mood lately. ((:

Bye Bye Bye.

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School's started = Stress started. But I'm more motivated to work... for obvious reasons of course. I have to do well in the 'A's. I have decided to work doubly hard, complete all homework, consistent work and most importantly study for every test. Hopefully this isn't just talk eh.

Anyways, I have also been motivated to lose weight. And I'm actually taking serious action to do that. I have started on my action plan already. I resisted Ferrero Roche today which is a huge step considering how I love them and how they're the reason for my first weight gain in about 2 years. Bleaghh. Evill. And all the christmas stuff too. Sigh. Indian families just want to make you fat.

Haha, anyways besides that, school's been good to me. It's not as bad as it could be. I understand stuff. I only slept in one lecture so far. ((: That's a start eh. Oh yeah, today during lit, this teacher say that, if a person sleeps alot, he/she is probably stupid and dumb. Basically intelligent people are super energetic and active and all that. And they hardly sleep.

That just proves how freaking stupid I am. I sleep alot during school and all... well, I used to. Haha. I don't really sleep now but then again it's probably because school started. Well, we'll see. Plus I've been sleeping really late lately, at about 2-3 ish and wake about at about 7-ish. So, not that stupid eh? Maybe I'm just in denial. Sigh.

Apparently Margaret Thatcher sleeps for four hours and Thomas Edison never slept for more than one hour at a time.

Don't sleep. Smart
Sleep. Stupid.

This is the only way to get smart. Please let it work.
I'm such a loser it's un-freaking-believable.

Oh yes, I AM OFFICIALLY GOING FOR THE MUSE GIG! ((:
THE PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS. ((:

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Hello Hello. ((:
I'm so shit excited. The probability of me going for the MUSE concert is now 0.7! Heh. I have the money. I have company. I just need one last thing. PERMISSION.
And the chances of my parents saying no is pretty high with what the A's coming up and all. BLeaghhh. HELP. This is a freaking once in a life time oppurtunity.
Arghh.

I really want to go. I think I'm gonna tell them I've got free tickets and there's no way they will let me pass up a free ticket. Typical Singaporeans. Plus. I should be home by 11 plus. So that should be alright. That is if I take a cab, but it'll probably be damn hard to get a cab. DAMN. I hate my life. Okay, nevermind can call cab. A few extra bucks won't matter right since I'm gonna be broke anyways.
I'm gonna lose a whole lot of weight. Finally.
Back to my Banana Cake diet once I'm back in school.
So that's 50 cents plus a 70 cents Milo.
Okay la. Should be alright.

Anyways, school's gonna start soon. Haven't completely finished any piece of homework. New Years' is gonna be spent rushing through.
Haven't really studied. Just read lit stuff but that's for entertainment purposes.
I'm so screwed.
Okay so since the end of the year is coming. I shall make a few of My Top 3 Favourite Lists.

Favourite 3 Movies of 2006

1. The Prestige
2. The Departed
3. Little Miss Sunshine AND The Last Kiss

Favourite 3 Dramas of 2006

1. Dexter
2. Prison Break
3. Heroes

Favourite 3 albums of 2006

1. Eyes Open by Snow Patrol
2. Black Holes And Revelations by Muse
3. The Crane Wife by The Decemberists.

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Merry Merry Christmas.
Christmas is not as exciting as it used to be. Lost its magic I guess.
Anyways, homework still not completed yet.
Didn't send out christmas cards.
Didn't buy everyone gifts.
God, this has been the worst Christmas when you see it from the "Giving Point of View"
Bleaghh. Tired. Catch you later.

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Time's 'Person Of The Year' is ME. ((:
And YOU of course.
Well, Time's 'Person Of The Year' is basically US. The bloggers which include me, the youtubers which also includes me and the myspacers which does not include me but friendster kindcounts right.
For once, I feel accomplished.
Haha.
I beat Iran's President Mahmoud Ahmadinejad.
Gosh. I've never been a winner in my life.

I so totally need a life.

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Your Ex-Lover is dead by Stars

God that was strange to see you again
Introuduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said 'Yes, I think we've met before'
In that instant it started to pour
Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain
And all of the time you thought I was sad...
I was trying to remember your name.

This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin
Tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in
Now you're outside me
You see all the beauty
Repent all your sin

It's nothing but time and a face that you lose
I choise to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard,
I'll send you the news
From a house down the road from real love.

Live through this and you won't look back.

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave.
You were what I want, I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you,
I'm not sorry it's over,
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save.

This song is the song under the music section.

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If there's one reason to get all excited for the start of school next year, it has definitely got to be my brand new super duper nice and cool pencil BOX. The type of pencil box I've been looking for all year! Bought it from the Popular headquarters or so I'd like to call it at Bugis. And it's absolutely cool. For starters, it's a Superman pencil box!

And, it's got the cheesy superman flying pose. But it's alright. Still cool. Oh my gosh, I absolutely love it. I can't wait to buy stationery to fill my brand new lovely pencil box. ((:
Anyways, did alot of history research today. All the photocopying done is enough to fry my already fried brain! Spent about eight damn dollars on photocopying alone. I better pass this assignment man! Bleaghh, if I want to pass, I must then actually get started on it.

Bleaghh. I have to seriously better start studying consistently. study study study.
Someone please kill me.
If I didn't have my pencil box with me, I'd have absolutely no motivation to actually try and survive JC 2. Thank you Superman. ((:

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I totally miss Mr. Chan! One thing I miss about band.
And it's so totally obvious he misses me too!
Haha. He's damnn retarded and annoying but he's so funny and retarded.

My sisters had a band camp a few days ago and there was this barbeque and he gave my sister a couple of marshmallows. My sister said she's had enough. And he actually said that they weren't for her but for me! ((:

How sweet right?

But my idiotic sister gave the marshmallows away to her friends. What the hell.

Nevermind. It's the thought that counts.
I miss secondary school. I miss IJTP. ((: I miss band. Much to my surprise.

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I decided to have a new blogskin since it's almost been one year since I started this blog. I cannot believe one year has passed. It's been totally incredibly fast.

Anyways, just turned 17. Thanks for your birthday wishes yes everybody? ((:
I cannot believe I am only turning 17 when some people are going to turn 18 in 2 months or so. Bleaghh.

Nevermind. Young is good. Besides, turning 18 is scary. You're supposed to know what you want to accomplish with your life at 18. You're officially an almost-adult. Heh. OH! And I also got wonderful news on my birthday! A wonderful Birthday present.
Muse is coming to perform in Singapore! And I have to go for this!
This news actually came on the day when I was going to buy their albums because I felt super guilty for dlding their albums cause they are so good!

Went to Taka yesterday and ate at Crystal Jade Restaurant. First time eating at this Crystal Jade Restaurant. Yep, went with Ting, Szeming, Charissa, Liyun and Minjia. Great stuff. I was made to try something new. You know since I'm a super non-experimental eater. They decided to let me try Xiao Long Bao. Under normal circumstances, I would never have eaten it. Cause it looks weird. Haha. But the whole damn table was staring at me so no choice. But I tried it and it was quite nice. Haha. Was super happy that I tried something new for once! Now, there's still sushi. I have to have to have to try that before I die. Haha.

Anyways, they got me slippers as my birthday present. And the slippers were super totally incredibly cute! I loved it! They probably decided to give me slippers after seeing my disgusting yellow slippers at Batam. Haha. And they gave me Famous Amos cookies too! ((: Was super happy.
Even happier with the company and all the teasing and the jokes.

AND I'M SO HAPPY I TRIED SOMETHING NEW. THANK YOU!
I'm not so much a loser anymore.

Happy birthday to me.

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I HAVE FOUND MY HIDDEN TALENT PEOPLE!
I am a super-swinger! ((: Along with Jocelyn. Haha.
During the Batam OCIP, at the resort, there was this playground with 2 swings and thus I was declared a super-swinger. Or was it self-declared. Oh well nevermind. Haha. Ting was declared Taiti Queen. ( I think that's how you spell it) and Charissa was declared... Queen of Iodine. haha.

Anyways, the Batam trip was mighty fun. Really loved it and the company. About 13 people I think. The chalet was BEAUTIFUL! It was like so not an OCIP. Heh.
Anyways, the teaching the kids was really something. It was cool. The kids were damnnn cute! AND SUPER ENTHUSIASTIC! I have never seen a bunch of kids so enthusiastic about academic stuff before in my entire life. They were basically screaming their heads off repeating the words after us. It was wonderful. Dannel proved to be a hearthrob among these Indonesian girls. They all gave him origami hearts! And he was happily counting away. Heh. Ircahn was like the big brother. I was the behind the scenes teacher. Heh. Ting was the super fun enthusiastic likeable teacher and Charissa was the photographer cum behind the scenes too maybe? And she taught a bit as well. Especially that weird language song. So fun. Abigail was also a pretty good teacher ((:

I feel my language is deteriorating like crazy. Must be too much Indonesian. Anyways, yeah. Batam's really fun! Took damnn alot of crazy pictures, watched a lot of TV. Oh yea. We received channel 5 over in Batam and they kept on showing Hady's You Give Me Wings Video. And truthfully the video sucks big time and everyone agreed. And so we decided to make our own 'You Give Me Wings' MV. It was super funny. We planned to put it on youtube but we were interrupted during the filming but the 10 seconds that we actually filmed was really really funny. I hope we finish filming! ((:
Oh. I hope I find my Batam Prince soon. ((: LOL.

Anyways, I MISS EVERYONE. IJ friends and CJ friends. Heh. Must see yall soon yes.

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My father's off to India alone to visit his sick father and also to visit people that need to be visited. He's off for a week. My father's never been away this long so I'm not exactly sure of how to feel. Before he actually left, I thought maybe I'd miss him quite a bit and all that. And this would show some signs of a good relationship between me and my father somehow. And well, yeah I do miss him a bit. But, it's really really hard to express that. When he calls home and I happen to pick up the phone, I give him all these monotonous short answers and I'm really scared that he thinks I don't care. And then I pass over the phone to my mom and I regret not giving monosylabic answers... if there's such a word. Heh.

Sigh. I wish it was so much easier.

Anyways, Miss Clarissa Cross scared the shit out of me so much that I am actually gonna try and study. Must study. Nevertheless, thanks for the scare... and the motivation. Kinda worked ((:

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HELLO. LONG TIME NO SEE EH?
Probably because of project work and all.
And, I've been watching alot of foreign dramas.
But it's more than enough to keep me busy the whole day.
I have been bored so just watch these dramas and all.

Anyways, Project Work is finally over! I wasn't as scared but this was probably because I prayed a lot before the presentation. And guess who was there as my audience during the presentation. The guy whom I dislike ALOT. Also known as Chokalingam. Heh. Our nickname for him.

Anyways, on the PW day especially after that, I fell sick. Terrible headache and flu and all. Bleaghh. Terrible. But thankfully the Influenza jab I took didn't really affect as much. Talking about influenza, I'm QUITE EXCITED ABOUT GOING TO BATAM. My first overseas trips without parents and all if you exclude Malaysia that is. Yepp. Leaving on the 20th of this month. WHICH IS ONE WEEK BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY. That was a hint by the way. Heh.

Okay, so I've been watching these Korean/Taiwanese romantic comedy dramas lately to basically pass time where I've to wait for the next episode of Prison Break and Dexter and all. And... after watching these dramas, I seriously long to fall in love. Somehow after watching these Asian dramas, you just want to fall in love heh. No matter whether it's one-sided or not. lol. I reckon it must be a wonderful feeling. But then after watching American shows like One Tree Hill and other teen soaps and all, you start to think otherwise. Haha. I've never been in love so I wouldn't know eh. So therfore, I've decided to boycott the second season of OTH which is currently showing on Star World because of Nathan And Haley's terrible relationship. And that takes alot of effort because I hate to watch something and stop in the middle of it. So then, I can still convince myself, that love is cool. Heh.

Lately I've been thinking and all about this thing called love. And I realise, I have to be a bit more passionate about life and all. I realised I am quite empty you know. I am not passionate about anything. I mean people are passionate about sports like soccer, or you know other stuff... guitar, piano etc. I used to be rather passionate about piano. But after resuming piano lessons, it doesn't seem to be my thing. I want to be passionate about something or someone. Preferably the former. Knowing me and my stone heart, I am not bound to like anyone soon. I hope I won't end up being a spinster for life. That would be just totally horrible. Gosh. I don't even want to think about it.

I am really envious of all those couples in school and everywhere else. Being in love I guess. It sounds nice ESPECIALLY after watching dramas.

heh.

I should stop watching so many dramas. However, I realised that the people in the dramas they fall in love AFTER living together, or after some arranged or contract marriage. Lol. So, I'm thinking. Arranged Marriage ain't that bad after all. Of course, I wouldn't mind if he's quite tall and well... a prince maybe?

Heh. DREAM. Until then, God, I pray that I want to feel excited about something.

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OMG! Lincoln Burrows got caught! Obviously, he will escape somehow. Hopefully. I'll die if he gets like executed.

Anyways, project work is really getting crazy. I'm so tired and like omg. I had presentations. I cannot stand having an audience. I just don't look at them. Don't know what they're thinking about you know. Anyways, one of the criteria is awareness of audience. And obviously I suck at that. BLEAGHH. HELP ME.

Anyways, please please go listen to the new My Chemical Romance album! It's greatt!!!!!!! Especially Famous Last Words. My favourite track from the album.

I'm tiredd.

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When you feel embarassed, I'll be your pride
When you need directions, I'll be the guide.

Passenger Seat-Death Cab For Cutie

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I HAVEN'T BLOGGED IN LIKE GOD KNOWS HOW LONG! Anyways, so many things have been happening. Okay, listing time.

1) After 3 long weeks, Prison Break has finally resumed. And damn! This was probably one of the best episodes in season 2 so far. I actually laughed. ((: Which hardly ever happens while watching Prison Break; you're either cursing or well... staring at Wentworth Miller or Dominic Purcell! ((:

2) I have finished watching the whole season of Princess Hours or Goong. Was never much of a korean drama fan but this show was great! Like, after watching this show, I seriously totally want to fall in love. For all those bored souls out there, I am going to give you this short synopsis.
-- The show is about this royal family in Korea where the King dies in an accident so therfore according to the royal rules, the brother takes over as the King. So the present King has a son named Shin and the previous King had a son named Yul. And long long time ago, a deal was made that whoever the crown prince was ( the King's son), he would have to marry the grandaughter of this commoner who saved the Great King long time ago. And this daughter's named ChaengYung. CG for short. So CG marries Shin, the present Crown Prince and Yul who was the previous Crown Prince returns to Korea and ends up falling for CG. Now, Yul is the kind-hearted, caring, sensitive guy whereas Shin is this guy who doesn't know how to express his feelings and emotions. Tough on the outside, soft on the inside. Shin eventually gradually falls in love with CG and CG too falls in love with Shin. But of course, they won't openly admit their feelings. Shin will think CG loves Yul and CG will think Shin loves Hyorin( Shin's ex-gf whom he actually proposed to but got rejected). So that's the whole story with many many sweet moments in it.
Go to YOUTUBE and watch! Type in Goong. Subtitles included. Watchh!

3) Besides the whole wanting to fall in love, another big thing happened. I GOT PROMOTED. I'M GOING TO JC 2 AND I ACTUALLY PASSED ALL MY SUBJECTS! ((: Now, there's just the A's to deal with and a whole load of holiday homework.

4) I've been reading this book called 'First Person Plural' and it's fucking wonderful. It's about multiple personalities. It's so real! AND it's a true story.

5) Had a retreat on Friday and it ended on Saturday. Although it wasn't as life-altering as the confirmation camp, I realised many many things.
The most important of which was the importance of knowing who you are. Who am I? This questions scares the shit out of me. Cause, honestly, I don't fucking know who the hell I am. Previously, I have lived my life on a 'No worries' policy kind of thing. And I realised at this retreat that knowing who you are is the most essential thing you need to have to survive in the crazy mad world. But the question is, who the hell am I? I've tried soul searching but I don't know. I don't know what I like. I don't know how I'm feeling half the time. I always feel happy or rather satisfied but is this all the surface? I want to feel something more, something deep whether hurt, sadness or whatever. Just something. Sometimes I feel it, but I push it away because I don't want to have any worries. After this retreat, I feel like just ONE MORE PERSON ON THIS PLANET. And if there's one thing I know about myself, it is that I DO NOT WANT TO BE JUST ONE MORE PERSON. I WANT TO MAKE A FREAKING DIFFERENCE IN THE WORLD.

So, will someone please help me to find myself amongst this madness? Please.

5) I want to fall in love. heh. Like that will happen

6) I want my whole class to stay together. Please. I feel that some people in my class deserved the grades that I got more than me. FOr math, I hardly ever practised let alone listen in class. Out of 2 hours, I would only pay attention for 1 hour. Yet, I passed. That's probably because I prayed like mad that I'd pass. Tell me now. Am I a selfish bitch or what? Asking for something I do not deserve. Other people who sure as hell practised alot more than yours truly failed. Like wth. Why can't God be fair? Even if it's against me. I hate feeling guilty and not being able to do anything about it. I'm going to church every Sunday and pray to God they'll make it.

WATCH PRINCESS HOURS.

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I'm quite happy today. Got results back and was glad to realise that it wasn't as bad as the mid-years. Thankfully. And I'm also happy to say that... I might just get promoted. I think I can but there's still math to go and the H1 requirements are still a bit hazy and all so yeah, not too sure. But I definitely feel more secure now that I have passed all subjects so far, including, tamil(!) and ECONS! Haha. So yeah. And most of my class did well actually, I think most of us will be together next year. So, that's good compared to other classes where half the class might not get promoted so yes, it's all good.

And Kat: I just want to tell you that I really do not want you to leave the school cause I do not know what I would do without you... and your gummy bears. But, it's your decision in the end and I can't do anything. Whatever it is, I'll be here for you yes! ((:

Exams aside, I have been so excited lately that I forgot to mention that...

I HAVE AN iPod VIDEO!


How freaking cool is that right? Like my dream come true! I don't have to choose what songs to put in anymore, at least not in the near future. AND I CAN PUT VIDEOS! But the batteries die off damnnn fast so bleaghh. BUT! Not the point.

Ok, besides my brand new iPod, lots of things have been happening lately. And I realised that I miss blogging. The promos are finally over, but still down with Project Work so that sucks but yeah, I'm more or less quite free in a sense. HOWEVER, History lecture today made me realise that I have to make full use of the holidays. I hope to God I study. Seriously.

Oh, if you have a chance, go listen to the song, The Man Who Told Everything by Doves. It's greatt! Just felt like saying that. Heh, anyways, got to go do stuff. Byee((:

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I freaking hate Tamil lessons. I hate the way she fucking picks on me fucking all the time. I hate it and it's seriously getting depressing now that the whole tamil cohort ( only 24 people, but still...) knows that she picks on me. Denesh asked me that day " Ehh, Jenn, Mrs Mohan doesn't like you is it?". Bleaghh. Tamil teachers used to love me or at least they didn't mind me until now.

Fuck, this sucks.

And it's not just because you know, my pride is lost because I am disliked by a teacher or what or the humiliation. But, she freaking picks on me ALL THE TIME. And when I give the wrong answer or what, she freaking shouts at me la. I mean. Arghh.

I wish I took higher tamil or what in secondary school.

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H2's are over. Finally, after what seemed like eternity but was actually one week and 2 days, the most stressfull, hard to study subjects are over. Bleaghh. There's still math in a weeks' time. But it isn't as hard to study, because math isn't boring. I mean yeah, you can hate math, but it keeps you on your toes that kinda thing. Unlike econs, where it's just plain boring. PLUS, you can listen to music and all that while doing math unlike my other arts, content-based subjects.

Anyways, exams officially ended on Tuesday with Paper 1 lit. WHICH I SCREWED UP BIG TIME! But not the point, at least not yet, I just wanted to be carefree, stress-free and all for at least until tonight. Then, tomorrow I'll start worrying. Yeah, so on tuesday, we had kind of an unofficial class outing, or rather a ' marriage of convenicence'(?) Where groups of people wanted to go catch a movie and we just decide to go together! It was fun fun. Ate pastamania at cine and I dared Ting and Zehra to dare me to eat a whole spoon of cheese with tobasco sause. And seeing how I HATE cheese, I was at an almost-puke stage, you know like fear factor how they eat bugs and they want to puke but they can't because of well $50,000 hanging over their heads, except I didn't puke because of the fear of looking more stupid than I already am, and the fear of being called a loser in public. AND OF COURSE, WHO THE HELL WOULD WANT TO PUKE?!

Ok, bleaghh. BAD memories. Anyways, yeah watched Miami Vice. Wasn't too keen at first but it's a nice enough action movie, I realised at this movie, blood makes me quite excited. Especially when they're shooting each other's guts off. Heh. But yeah, it was a good movie and bloody hell, GONG LI is damnn freaking hot, especially when she wears her powersuits and all, her body is so damnn wow! yepp, hot stuff.

I haven't blogged for so long, that I want to type out all the good things that's been happening to me which I don't usually do. Time for a change eh? But it's so mundane. I'm talking rubbish. Bleagh. Anyways, yesterday our class organised this thingy at Marina Bay where you pay ten bucks which includes a free ice cream, transport to the place to and fro from the train station and obviously the food! Damnn good deal. And I loved it, almost everyone was there. It was great to see the unity. I've never been to a gathering where the everyone actually turns up. So, this was great! And it was fun, and for the first time in a long while, I felt genuinely happy, and especially care-free. Except for the little moments where I'd wish we'd all just stay together as a class next year, and I really really hope I graduate with this class. Sighh. Ahh, dream dream.

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Arghh, as patriotic as I'd like to be, I wish I didn't have to live in Singapore. No one ever comes to Singapore except bands like Westlife and all the pop acts that are on the verge of losing their appeal and what not. Then they'll come to Asia since that's where they get most of their support from. Bleaghh. I just read that Snow Patrol was having this Japanese tour thing next year February! Like wth, why not stop by Singapore on the way. They're getting quite popular here anyway. Arghh, the hottest acts always go to JAPAN. Or Bangkok for some damn cool festival.

I mean Singapore's bringing in cool acts too like Kings of Convenience and all, so it ain't that bad. But why can't we be another Japan. It's always the damnn Taiwanese acts that are coming for tours here and all. Bleaghh. Japan's damnn cool, everyone goes there. Movie stars, pop stars, bands. SNOW PATROL!

Sighh.

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Anyways, was listening to this song called Spiders by Lovedrug and I thought I'd post the lyrics here because I think they're wonderful. Obviously.

Searching on the wire, for a wire
For a piece of mind
Like the spiders in the corners that are never there
To the one, to the magic sun
You're not that bright now, but you'll be some day, soon.
And you'll fall in love with the moonlight.

So come on come on and say so,
come on come on and say so

If God was on the radio,
I know he'd say to thee:
Love is spiders on the edge,
And we're hanging by a thread
Connected to the other end of this twisted frequency I've spun

But I don't care
I'd be happy
If you'd share
Your web with me.

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The countdown to the promos is crazy. It's gonna happen so soon that I keep thinking it's some sick nightmare. Haha. So dramatic eh. But yeah, I'm really scared. I can't get retained. Hell, the word retain is not even in my parents' vocabulary list. Whereas that word has been the only word in my vocabulary list for these past few weeks. Bleaghh. Study Study Study! I can't wait for the promos to be over. Then we have PW to be worried about. Arghh, forget what I just said, I can't wait for the A's to be overr. Bleaghh.

Anyways, just caught Singapore Idol and Jonathan sang 'Chasing Cars'! Like omg, this is my favourite song of the damnn year! It's the song I listen to every night before I sleep every day ever since I got hold of the album a couple of months back. I was kinda apprehensive when they said he was singing the song because I would never forgive him IF he screwed up or didn't give a satisfactory version of the song. But thankfully, he did give a wonderful rendition obviously not as good as the original but good enough! Actually, everyone sang well tonight. We don't have Joakim to spoil anything so yeah it's all good.

AND! I just also watched Rockstar: Supernova on youtube. And Toby's original song rocked the damnn house! I was like singing along. Thank god I was alone at home. But yeah, I was singing along! Maybe, I'll put the video when I'm not so lazy. Oh my gosh, I'm like super high, super excited. Uh-oh-Uh oh uh oh. And Magni's original was okay too. Dave Navaro was spot on with the totally cool guitar riffs throughout the song. Cool shit. If I wrote an original song, it would probably be an upbeat version of like mary had a little lamb. I'm such a loser. But yeah. They rockedd!

Gonna go chase cars around my head. Heh. Lame.

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This week's been damn crazy. What with the war bewteen my mom and my sisters. Heh. My mom's been really crazy, either she is damn stressed out or well, she likes to nag. I suspect both. Anyways, holidays have started and glad to say my first day not in school has turned out to be rather productive. I studied the End of Cold War. However, I must admit that it was my interest in the subject rather than the need to study that mad it productive. Heh. To top off my learning of the situations and all in the Cold War and the Post Cold War, I watched Hotel Rwanda again. And with better understanding of the situation and history about the genocide, I appreciated the movie much more and well hate the Americans even more, if that's even possible. Their non-action during the genocide because of the lack of vital interests in Rwanda killed over a million tutsis. Quite sad stuff. Wanted to cry, but my sisters were there and I wanted to maintain my strong image. Heh. Maybe, I can get some respect.

Anyways, Cold War aside, I've been quite happy lately. Joakim finally is out. Ironically, he was eliminated after probabably one of HIS better performances. So yeah, I think the judges' reverse psychology worked. Even Ken praised him. But of course, Jonathan's rendition of 'Unforgettable' was omg! I wanted to be his girl! Heh. I mean I am funny (?), spontaneous. Damn. Ok well, so I can't be his girl. Well, can dream right. Haha, and Yuan Hao is a fan of Jon too but he wants him out because dear YH can't stand the suspense and fear of Jon's possibility in being eliminated and this is severely affecting his revision for promos. HAHA. HE'S CRAZY!

Also, Ryan Star, one of my favourite rockers got eliminated from Supernova. In a way, I am sad because you don't get to see him perform but I guess I always knew that he wasn't a match for Supernova. Supernova has a weird mix of weird musicians from Metallica to Guns N Roses to Motley Crue. So yeah, Ryan's more of a like... Copeland, Augustan, Jacks Mannequin kinda guy but more edgier and slightly heavier you know. But he's a sensitive rocker and he'll never be able to fit in with Supernova. Whereas Magni and Dilana fit in so well with Supernova especially Dilana. But I hope Ryan continues things with his old band 'Stage' soon enough. And yea, I know this is not the end of Ryan the Star. HEH.

Ok, gotta go now. Ghost Whisperer with the ever gorgeous Jennifer Love Hewitt ((: And it's not just the name.

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The week didn't start of well, BUT I thought of Prison Break and I started to feel better. BECAUSE.

Prison Break is starting today baby!
This time tomorrow, I'll be happier than what I'm feeling now.
Come on. 60% more!

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With all the good singers getting voted out, I think I am gonna boycott watching Singapore Idol and watch Rockstar: Supernova instead. But we all know that I can't miss Jonathan's, Hady's and Nurul's performance so well, yeah I am just not gonna watch the RESULTS show. Then at least I can watch Rockstar even if it's the elimination round. Because even in the elimination round, the bottom 3 singers always rock the house man! Haha. Last week, was watching Rockstar during the commercial breaks of Singapore Idol and I caught Magni singing Radiohead's creep and I was like wow. Even though, his stage presence was not as wow as Lukas Rossi's version of the same song, he sang it really well!! Haha. So, until Joakim gets voted out, I will NOT watch Singapore Idol results show. Just to prove to you why watching Rockstar: Supernova is a better choice, I'll leave you with a video of my favourite rocker Ryan Star's breathtaking version of R.E.M's Losing My Religion.

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